i sit at a turning point. again. i'm back in charleston. again. but i'm probably doing the best now then i have in awhile. I bought myself a horse. thats what i wrote about in my last journal. she is everything to me. i would take a bullet for that horse. she is wonderful and i am so proud of her. after rideing her and rideing her, i found she has an incredible foxtrot. she does whatever i ask her to do, stands for me to get on and becomes incredibly nervous if anybody but me touches her.
in the meantime, i've also been training my dads horses, especially able. so far so good. he stands to mount up, speeds up when you click and stops when you ask him to. so far so good. dad is so impressed he's going to take him on his first trail ride soon. i'm proud of my kids.
all of this horseback rideing is getting me into shape, i've lost about 40 pounds in the past 4 or so years. i moved away from tim. he joined the army, but before that i realized it was just a bad relationship. one that would never get any better for me OR him. but thats okay. i really am okay with that. i miss him, but i know we're bad for eachother.
most important of all. through a series of events and stories. which are way to long and hard to belive for me to actually recount. i'm going to study to be a minister. i know a lot of you may think. what the hell? but i've gone a long way to come to where i am now. god told me to do it and do it i shall. i even have some ideas (probably not my own) about incorperateing art and animation into ministry. twill be much fun.

thats all i got for now. ta ta